if alex didnt feel the pleasure he felt he should have in this moment, he doesnt tell anyone. Missing him was dark gray, all alone Forgetting him was like trying to know somebody you've never met But loving him was red Loving him was red. he didnt care about that right now. noNO, he took both his parents by surprise with his shout, but when neither of them spoke he continued. 2. june he immediately pushed his arms to wrap around himself, letting his tears fall freely, sobs shaking his shoulders against the couch. once your already flying through the freefall he was only partially aware while the principle gave a speech. it does not go according to alexs plan. the same barista coming around the counter after alex had sat down at a table, sitting right across from him. it was then he realized he had never stopped his mumbles of stop and please and no.. but they get in a little fight. he stuck the side of his head close to the bars on the stair railing trying to listen in. he wanted to be happy with his boyfriend for once, sue him. he was now aware of his body shaking and the tears rolling down his cheeks. she just violently shook her head, using the back of her hand to wipe away her tears. tip: katekyou "alternate universe" sort:>words, Alex Claremont-Diaz/Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor, Alex Claremont-Diaz & June Claremont-Diaz, Alex Claremont-Diaz/Original Male Character(s), Alex Claremont-Diaz Loves Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor, Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor Loves Alex Claremont-Diaz, Married Alex Claremont-Diaz/Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor. Touching him is like realizing all you ever wanted was right there infront of you - YouTube My baby My baby AboutPressCopyrightContact. nora doesn't let him talk about it. sure henry hugs him on a daily, and he holds alex when theyre sleeping, but its never like this. im not mad per se, i just would have never said any of this stuff to you. Notes: (See the end of the chapter for notes .) tip: "sherlock (tv)" m/m NOT "sherlock holmes/john watson", Alex Claremont-Diaz/Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor, Alex Claremont-Diaz & June Claremont-Diaz, Alex Claremont-Diaz/Original Male Character(s), Alex Claremont-Diaz Loves Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor, Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor Loves Alex Claremont-Diaz, Married Alex Claremont-Diaz/Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor. i guess i'm just worried, but i'm sorry. im so sorry, i dont mean to make you feel bad. While we've done our best to make the core functionality of this site accessible without javascript, it will work better with it enabled. dont leave, please dont leave us- you cant leaveme, please.. she might actually feel free from him for once in her life. if alex didnt feel the pleasure he felt he should have in this moment, he doesnt tell anyone. in all honesty, alex didnt want to do what tommy wanted from him, but he didnt want tommy to be mad at him. 2. june he never meant to get so angry. it was uncomfortable and left an uneasy feeling in alexs stomach. alex sat on the burning hot plastic of the chair, his hands fidgeting with each other as sweat dripped down his forehead. he couldnt pinpoint the exact emotion, but if you asked alex he would probably say tommy looked almost disgusted in him. im sorry.. Touching him was like realizing all you ever wanted was right there in front of you Memorizing him was as easy as knowing all the words to your old favorite song Fighting with him was like trying to solve a crossword and realizing there's no right answer Regretting him was like wishing you never found out that love could be that strong she didnt stop. did anyone notice all my titles being taylor songs?! I KNOW, his shout promptly cutting her sentence off, I KNOW IT WAS SELFISH, IM JUST SO FUCKING SELFISH RIGHT? no. Work Search: forgetting him was like he attempted to pull alex into a hug but alex simply just pulled himself away. 3. nora But loving him was red, red, red. Fighting with him was like, trying to solve a crossword and realizing there's no right answer. which was definitely way to fast. congrats alex, proud of you bro, liam responded, pulling alex into some sort of frat bro hug. alex glanced at the dinner now abandoned, now cold, sitting on the table, i ruined your plans for tonight, he croaked, looking up at henry with wet eyes. ill come by tomorrow to pick up the rest of my bags later. when alex moved to open the door he was fully pulled back, almost landing on his butt. all he wanted was for it to be a good day, he would have taken a decent day at best, but all he got was horrible. alex felt his body almost sag in relief, melting into henrys embrace. tell myself its time now for most of the names called he zoned out, just barely making out the syllables coming out of his principles mouth, but once he heard liams name he was suddenly self aware. tip: katekyou "alternate universe" sort:>words, Alex Claremont-Diaz/Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor, Alex Claremont-Diaz & June Claremont-Diaz, Alex Claremont-Diaz/Original Male Character(s), Alex Claremont-Diaz Loves Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor, Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor Loves Alex Claremont-Diaz, Married Alex Claremont-Diaz/Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor. when ellen and oscars fights first started, alex was still so young. Work Search: you did not consent for it. or as well as they could work. youre right, im sorry. you have not been a bad husband to me in any way. but his rambling was promptly cut off and he was snapped out of his daze by the sharp tone in junes voice. but loving him was red. it just feels likeit feels like you just dont really care about me; like youre using me, his voice hushed, practically an inaudible whisper. he didnt care. 5. tommy at june or really, in any situation. his name was called what felt like ages ago, even though it was probably around 20 minutes, and he ached to just throw his cap up so he could leave. we arent exclusive, or dating. well i had to have been asking for it, right? june and alex get in a fight. WE DID IT! all he got in return was a small smile from liam while being roughly placed down away from him. it was then he realized he had never stopped his mumbles of stop and please and no.. sure henry hugs him on a daily, and he holds alex when theyre sleeping, but its never like this. Lyrics Forsongs808 20 subscribers Subscribe 661 45K views 5 years ago Song:Unknown Show. he didnt care about that right now. and i got scared because im selfish, and a horrible person who lets horrible things happen to them and soon- soon youre gonna realize all of this and leave me and im gonna end up just like my parents. and im horrible for thinking like that, but im just so bad at love. henry could only stare dumbfounded at alex, his eyes wide. alex looked into his eyes, the joy in his eyes from before now replaced with shame. 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If you proceed you have agreed that you are willing to see such content. its not that i think you dont love me, you know i would do anything for you. alex looked up through his eyelashes, his eyes wet and shiny. he held alex. i messed up, his voice a whisper, i got scared because youve been so so good to me lately but i've beensuch a bad husband. he went back to his room, choking on his own breaths as he struggled to breathe. ?also, this is me projecting onto alex. alex met tommy his first year at college at a bar. i pushed them off but i still feel gross, but its all my fault.. where he made new friends, and he only got minimal amounts of homework compared to june, and he could stay up until 9 oclock watching television. alex please. Touching him was like realizing all you ever wanted was right there in front of you Memorizing him was as easy as knowing all the words to your old favorite song Fighting with him was like trying to solve a crossword and realizing there's no right answer Regretting him was like wishing you never found out that love could be that strong [Chorus:] he then allowed tommy to drag him to the bedroom and allowed tommy to take him. it was hopeless for them. it hurts me and makes me feel bad that you think like that. i guess im just worried, but im sorry. alex and his long term boyfriend in college. alex slowly nodded before he felt henrys soft lips against him. you did not deserve this, at all. i would have never wanted you to feel like this. he swiftly moved passed henry when he opened the door, his brain moving 100 miles per hour. burning red liam always claimed he just wasnt ready yet but alex did not believe he would ever be ready. and realizing there is no right answer and its so much easier to not let it all happen to me, and trying to leave you was so selfish of me, but its so much easier. he clapped so hard, and let out a small shout of approval, before locking eyes with liam, his eyes brightening all that much more. and besides, i said i was sorry, what more could you want from me. alexs heart wholly broke. it was far too hot to be completely covered with a graduation gown but who was he to complain, on such an important day in his life. they were, and still are, polar opposites which alex believes is what makes them work so well together. Videos were added by DanuL97, Moonblade, Lenin606. thats why she kissed meshe wouldnt have just- just done it? henry gave alex a look he could not read. Thank You. believe it or not, i dont spend all my time around you just because i feel bad for you, he mumbles, his tone suggesting in a way that he doesonly hang around alex because he feels bad for him. but then the tears never came. it was hopeless for them. Please consider turning it on! as well as Please consider turning it on! henry would hate him. trying to know somebody you've never met theres a feeling alex cant find when hefinallygets the comfort hes been waiting for all this time. 4. liam how much longer do you need to discover yourself. anytime i get to spend with you in enough, i dont care what we are doing.. he couldnt pinpoint the exact emotion, but if you asked alex he would probably say tommy looked almost disgusted in him. no. continued until liam showed up and pulled jordan off him. ill come by tomorrow to pick up the rest of my bags later. when alex moved to open the door he was fully pulled back, almost landing on his butt. Summary: 5 times alex was rejected the touch he needed + 1 time henry gave it to him. [Verse 1: Ally & Normani] Loving him is like driving a new Maserati. | TISCALI MEDIA, a.s. | just as quickly as he got there, he felt himself get pulled off, falling to the ground. and i could see it all in my head and that brings him here, hobbling up the stairs. she continued to kiss him, despite the unrequited attention. she just stared at him, he could almost see the gears turning in her head. im sorry, he whispered, his eyes glossy. henrys eyes shot up, the happiness in them quickly replaced with worry once he saw alexs drooped frame. alex mumbled the chant of stupid, stupid, stupid as he stumbled through the doors of the brownstone. you areselfish,you are afuck up,youruin everythingand it was your fault things didnt work out with james, okay, june emphasized every insult with a shove until alex was practically out of her room. 2. june okay? all alex could do in response was nod as he slowly lowered himself down to the floor until he was sitting. tip: "sherlock (tv)" m/m NOT "sherlock holmes/john watson", 1. ellen and oscar he glanced around at everyone standing by them and thankfully, him and liam had gone unnoticed by liams parents, but alex knew he had to be more careful. he had been on edge all day and this just tipped him right over. liam was only a friend. the bars were cold against his face and made him cringe. these have all been very much out of character, for the sake of the story. in all honesty, alex didnt want to do what tommy wanted from him, but he didnt want tommy to be mad at him. he wanted to be happy with his boyfriend for once, sue him. i love you so bloody much it hurts. he swiftly moved passed henry when he opened the door, his brain moving 100 miles per hour. one second he was thinking about the barista, and then the next moment he was thinking about how henry would hate him for it. 5. tommy as soon as she got there she went off on a tangent about how horrible her day was. he held alex. he couldnt get the image of previous events out of his mind. alex stood in the middle of junes room, shivering, with his clothes dripping rainwater all over the light purple carpet. nora quickly made her way out of the claremont household, leaving alex alone with his thoughts. i was talking alex! its not that i think you dont love me, you know i would do anything for you. alex looked up through his eyelashes, his eyes wet and shiny. is that what youwant? This is just a preview! alex stayed with tommy for another full 2 months before june forced alex to break up with him after hearing one of their fights during holiday break. by now alex was aware of a few things. 3. nora burning red im not mad, i was just saying i didnt appreciate how you were flirting with that girl basically the entire night, he argued back. the same barista coming around the counter after alex had sat down at a table, sitting right across from him. congrats alex, proud of you bro, liam responded, pulling alex into some sort of frat bro hug. alex please. Cannot annotate a non-flat selection. remembering him comes in flashbacks and echoes he didnt care. pretty much right away, every student was on their feet, rushing to find each other, or moving to find their families who were now slowly shuffling out of the bleachers, or the small few who held out hope in still finding their cap. and that's why he's spinning round in my head im not the best with love either, i was raised in a loveless household. this was nothing new. continued until liam showed up and pulled jordan off him. alex spotted liam moving towards where both of their families sat together, liams family basically separating oscar and ellen. i was gonna hold off on posting this one, but i could wait any longer. how much longer do you need to discover yourself. . 4. liam the hushed shouts were not as quiet as they thought they were. he then allowed tommy to drag him to the bedroom and allowed tommy to take him. 15-jun-2021 - CARMELINA (@likemilknhoney) added a photo to their Instagram account: "Touching him was like realizing all you ever wanted was right there in front of you Memorizing him" left kudos on this work! 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